miss carolina belle

the week of october 25, 2010 is when i first knew something was up!  that is when my stomach started this pooch thing....freaked me out...i was terrified....i was getting fat!  got married, turned 25 and now i'm getting fat! bye bye body!  by the beginning of november my pants were starting to not fit.  talk about depressing!  for about two months i was sick and gaining weight, it was awful.  at first eric just thought i was complaining he would just say " the wedding is over...youre not working out...youre eating whatever you want" blah blah...and then at one point asked me if i was a hypochondriac.  so now im depressed, fat and my husband thinks im crazy. wonderful!  then came the third weekend in december.  that friday i stayed home from work....i was so tired and sick and sick and tired of going to work and lying on my office floor hugging the garbage can.  PLUS that was the night we had tickets to see GARTH BROOKS (ive loved him since i was a child) in nashville.  i was determined to rest all day and be ready for a beer and the best concert of my life (i have always always wanted to see him in concert)!  i know this sounds so stupid but it wasnt until Garth Brooks walked out on stage...all the fans were screaming....and i realized that 1. i was crying and 2. i had no beer... that i realized......IM NOT CRAZY...I REALLY AM PREGNANT!  see i had suspected pregnancy but had failed 3 tests!  i had taken my first test back in october and then two more in november...eric even told me not to "waste anymore money on pregnancy tests.  youre not pregnant. "  i spent the rest of the concert crying and holding my stomach hoping to soon confirm with science what i knew in my heart was right. 

the next day we traveled to bowling green for christmas with erics moms (we will refer to her throughout as MIL (mother in law...im big on abbreviating things)) family.  we were driving with my brother and sister in law (BIL and SIL) to the hosts house when i was explaining to my SIL how crappy i was feeling lately, i was getting fat and we should find a new gym asap!  the only thing she could really say was "are you sure youre not pregnant?"  and that is what pushed me to the point of knowing i was going to take another test.

the following monday...december 20, 2010....i drove to a cvs by my office....and bought the most expensive pregnancy test available...and not the one with the plus or negative...but the digital kind that says YES or NO.  i remember being so anxious and wanting to call eric and tell him to come to the office...but knowing how mad he was about the money i had already 'wasted" on pregnancy tests i decided to wait. i ran into the office and took the test without anyone seeing me and ran straight back up to my office and proceeded to toss the test into a drawer.  the dreaded wait.  i was oh so hoping it would say PREGNANT...but we all know how the dreaded wait goes...we've done this before.  and what was so crazy is that i didnt know how to feel or what to think or do.  every other time i had been in this situation i was just begging God that the test would be negative...   but here i was just dying for it to say what my heart was hoping for!

i pulled the drawer open just to peak at the test....and there it was....PREGNANT! i was so excited that i literally started screaming and jumping up and down ...but then stopped jumping promptly bc i couldnt help but wonder if i was josteling the baby too much! ha.

of course my mom was right around the corner...how was i to know (please note that at the time, i worked with my mom...and that story is for another time), she came running into my office, "whats wrong, whats wrong?"  there was no disgusing what the issue was.  i was smiling so big that there was no other explanation. 

i immediately called eric and in my most desperate and distressed voice i explained that he MUST come to the office right now, it was important that i see him right now!  i remember sitting there with ants in my pants...picking up the phone to call and talk to him...maybe to tell him...but knowing i wanted to tell him face to face.  i was so excited.  it took him maybe 15 minutes to make it to my office...and the moment he opened the door i couldnt help but throw the test at him......after all...over the last 2 months he'd told me i was just gaining weight...aka getting fat....or crazy and had dismissed all my inclinations of pregnancy.  I WAS RIGHT and i was going to blissfully rub it in his face!  he took a deep breath, smiled and looked at me in disbelief.  he was excited.  but at the same time you could tell he didnt want to get his hopes up. 

the very next day, december 21, 2010 is when i got my blood test and it wasnt a week later that the doctors office confirmed my pregnancy!

it has been a rough road...im not going to say "pregnancy has been the most amazing journey" or anything like that.  it has def been rough for me. i was so sick at first and i got so big so fast....gaining most of my total weight immediately.  i have been tired for all but maybe one month and my get-up-and-go has been get-up-and-gone for quite some time now.  but here we are ....yesterday marked my 33 week pregnant and today marks 6 weeks and 6 days left.  we are due august 31 and i couldnt be more ready!

ok...back to the baby...this whole pregnancy i have been so in-tune with my body.  i mean obviously, i "knew" i was pregnant back in october..just couldnt prove it...and i also KNEW it was a GIRL from the very beginning.  ill admit that i waved back and forth occasionally but i just had this feeling that i had a little girl in there.  there were some definite debates about it. no one in erics family thought there was any possibility that i had a girl.....all they have are boys....but all my friends and people that KNOW me would always say, "i just cant picture you with anything but a girl!"

it was march 28, 2011 that we had our sex appointment!  gosh i was so nervous!  i had talked a big game about this little baby being a girl....i did NOT want to be wrong!  but there she was on the screen...a little girl...no mistaking it!  id give a lot of things to have a video or picture of erics face when the tech said it was a girl!  he was flabbergasted!  but also overjoyed!  and trust me....if either of the Fow brothers or....anyone out there period...was to be the one daddy deserving of a little girl...its Eric Fow!  needless to say i was on cloud nine and couldnt wait to hold my little princess....bc if you know me...you know she was destined to be a little princess from the beginning!

so now here we are...patiently (as much as we can) awaiting her arrival!  her room is ready....car seat is in the car...clothes are washed and put away in drawers by size...our last shower is this saturday and next week i am packing our bags for the hospital!  my prediction is that she will come the week of august 12th.  this little girl is NOT gonna need to be induced!  i am confidant that she has been preparing for her arrival for the last couple of weeks.  :)

follow us on here as i update you on all our happiness, frustration and accomplishments. not to mention to occasionally vent about being a stay at home mommy who is also working from home....  (nothing in life, no arrangement, is ever ideal). 

lastly, i am still trying to figure this whole blog thing out. so bare with me ( is that the right bare?  should it be bear?...im big on english and grammar, but that is one that gets me...hmmm....apologies if its wrong) as i figure this out.  pictures will be up soon!

the picture here is from our 4d ultrasound:) and all ultrasound pics are on facebook!